me= universal?

racism and exploitation of the poor

in the past 3 years i have come across approximately 4 no 5 works/by white caucasian artists-
that has been very racist(is there a difference between a little bit racist and very racist?)
and it gets so much umph from airplay!
i think whites really get excited by that
there is a museum in amsterdam , the curator and i did not see eye to eye when he came to my studio
and it was always a conflict of political positions
i just checked the web page of the museum, and there is a big swastikka,
and i think whites like to play with these symbols because they get tintalised in the mouth
like purverts peeping into a swimming pool change room
maybe racism is their forbidden fruit?

i know i am generalising-
but like chris rock says
if you get suprised-you are the fool!

i have the best parents
they have saved my life once again

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it has been a while…
i drunk dialed someone yesterday.
someone answered and was very happy to hear from me!
i was rather suprised!
anyways, i cannot remember what the conversation was exactly, but in the end i deleted someone’s number.
deleted!gone!!
(and all the other numbers on my phone eish…by accident)
i showered
oh i went to dinner at a friend’s place earlier, we all got rather drunk my gawwwd!
well me and the hosts did, j and e, less so, they arrived later than all of us.
being inside my studio alone w the door closed feels like a morg.
it is pretty chilly.
blah blah blah…
space ships
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i may be running outta words
i never know what to say to people…
and i become suddenly akward
because i feel as though i am being rude or somethin’
anyways…maybe it is pms…

yip
yes
yay

i wrote the 1st 2 lines of THE letter
i love layinng on my bed after showering, it is such a great feeling
i watched the addams afmily for the first time today
interesting, strange at times(the kkk, nazi, jew and racism references…i didn’t expect that)(haha, chris rock says one should always expect it, don’t be caught off-gaurd further faarqer!)
feather faarqer

pms time again, red floods
just gushing constantly,
this time around i am sooo orny it is maddening
i wrote a letter, to my mumu
a letter which i sent
a fare well leter, i was so pissed off after changing my pad,
before that i had left a sweet msg on his phone, but whilst in the toilet i started thinking…
this is shit,-whilst i was dropping a shit actually-
why should i hold all of these thoughts huh?!
farq it!
hahaha, and then later when i was showering i laughed to myself-
i must appear like a luni
of course i am a lunatic!!my cycles are completely regulated by the moon!
anyways, i had a funny memory of being so into this one dude- i was still in high school
me and this dude were not dating or anything…
we met once, and we go along really well,
then i sent him a break up letter in the mail to his boarding school
i never heard from him again!
hahahahahaha!
we were not even dating!!!
i wonder what he thought!!
hahahaha!
crazy farq.
he was a fart.
hahaha

i guess he was a boring type…
with no sense of foresight or fun!
hahah!
i wonder wether he laughed-hahaha
and for how many days, his name was lesego actually
i can not remember his surname
no need…haha, maybe i should, so that i can break up with him again
send him divorce papers!
tell him i am keeping the house and all the investments, he can have the car and the boy children
i will have the standard poodle and the dobbermin
he should pay me a monthly salary thereafter,
and this salary will cover my studio costs, my travel costs, my taxes and my personal expenses-
organic pads!organic tampons!
and i will marry his autistic brother who writes beautiful letters, he will live in a home with 3 hairy nurses to cater to his needs.

i need to get my act together now.
i will wake up early and go look at some great work and then go present a work of mine which i am still trying to understand!
sloppy kisses…
i need a low maintenance lover…
coz i’m a hi maintenance woman
it is 1.20 am saturday night, i gotta sleep.
i keep thinking that having a gallerist is a wierd thing,
he cares because it is about him too!
he/or she, is invested in my happiness as an artist
he is happy when i have shows or invites etc
it is a special thing…