me= universal?

alights the news!
the news is on flames
nothing is ever so sensational…
if there was a way of making money from feelings such as these…
i would be in the billions
gamola kudumela
the sweat from missing this mans
not even a month has passed
i guess when we are together we will have to get used to it, that some weeks i will be gone on shoot,
doing small residencies…etc.
aurf, let me read my rushdie, i wanna do 10 things all at once!

“you better be packing something in that wallet, i’m not one of those salad eatin’ chicks”

wow!
super special effects…
this love stuff*
makes you glow from the inside out!!
t is the man
and i am lol-….the woman

what a crazy affair!
we have hardly known each other
we are rather infatuated, completely!!!
love sick to the core…
i dunno how we will survive these months apart!!
he says he will, i said hey- use a condom and just let me know if you meet someone else
he frowns and says there’s only you- says have faith…

i dig him…blind blind
time with him was so much fun…
he was/is so sweet and gentle and tender and funny and weird in a weird way!!!
i am bitten…smitten!
i miss him
his internet is down, so he wrote to me once today…
i just wanna hear from him, the sweet nothings… the charms*

the charms!!!
oh what sparks he ignites through the whole of me
i am so delighted that he likes me too!
that we like each other!!
i dunno what he likes about me, but whatever it is…
i don’t care!!! as long as he keeps loving it!!
mr love deluxe…! he is special*
and he is such a guy!
testesterone deluxe!
lol, and so gentle…
one of the best new years ever!!

oh some of the best new years ever…
..the one year w my cousins and nephews and shons, we were still young, we swam the night away at my parents’ house…
…the one year with slo in durbs and we partied the night away with a friend’s bro, we had caught a cab from cowies hill to town…
…the one year w mak+ tals haha we had gone to jozi, somehow we ended up crying because the bus to the main party left us?lol
…aaaah!!brooklyn!! so much fun at gu’s place!!!!soooo gooood!!!!
….and this year!maaaayyyn! i was w my niece who i just love!and one/2 of my fav cousins and mr.t <3
oh my when the clock struck 12 …aaaargh!!!i giggle at the thought of it…what a rush!!
magic***

sooooooooooo much love
sooo inlove i could burst an all that would fall out would be immaterial glitter
fireworks!

wow, what friends i have, thank you!
wow, what a beautiful life this is…. thank you!
what a lot of dreams i have!thank you!!
what alot of juice i have!thank you!!!
what alot of love i have! thank you!!!
wow!
what a bright tomorrow i see!! thank you!!

Igqamfuza…bubble already in the air
Ibhamuza- bubble before it has risen
Isibhamu- sethunya
Amayiwane- amanzi
actually Din, we differentiate “uqhafuza untshingamu” (bubble gum bubbles) or “amagwebu ensipho” (soap bubbles), texture wise one quasi-solid the other quasi-liquid, ngikuphila Din-star? 5 hours ago · Like
pots with flower prints
prints of flowers in photo frames
pack the room
boxes and boxes, stands
folded laundry—floral laudry

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xx
the administrator
kill the curator
gaping absence
Allan Kaprow: life in a gallery is like fucking in a cemetery

sweety, darling, lovey, baby,my dear, my love, honey, sugar, love, dali, skat, sweetheart, sthandwa….

magents… ma autie, the fellas, dudes, bafana, majita

goodbyes…♪♫♬ badbyes… ♪♫♬ ✈ ✈ ✈ ✈ ♪♫♬ another grid ♪♫♬ dimsum lala ♪♫♬
my heart weeps… ♪♫♬ but heaven awaits….♪♫♬
(awates?)
goodbye baby♪♫♬ kiss me darling ♪♫♬
all these goodbyes…♪♫♬ badbyes… ♪♫♬ ✈ ✈ ✈ ✈ ♪♫♬ another grid ♪♫♬ dimsum lala ♪♫♬

are you back sweetyhearty?♪♫♬ are you back ♪♫♬ dim sum lala♪♫♬ are you back to your 2nd and 3rd wives ♪♫♬ are you back sweety♪♫♬ oh hearty hearty ♪♫♬ are you back? ♪♫♬ sweety!♪♫♬oh so sweety! i can’t wait to heary!!!heary sweety sweety ♪♫♬

is this how people die?
just fall…
thomthom
97bpm

hiphip to the new year…!
what a year last year was….too nuts.
the best parts of last year were kweek throwing me a surprise party! and going with her to sun city!
that was lovely!! and all my friends coming… it was like a big hug!!
wow and my 1st solo in jozi, working w joan and lotto and dvd, they were a great team together
that was a big highlight of the year for me
working towards it was great!
and the result was cool!
my time in san fran was great! much needed!!
and in texas! treated like someone special!!
switzerland!
seeing friends in nyc! durban was lovely, time w sloms
and meeting xo, he just rejuvinated me
time w tsi…. dancing with taks
being given the opportunity to be a friend
time with my bros and family members in general…
the love

hoping that this year will be extra beautiful!!

spent the past few days with sharps
he is an interesting character!!
he is so male!
we met at the 26th dec party
we chatted for a while
he did most of the talking really
but i did not mind i found his stories really interesting
and there was something alluring about him
we kissed much later in the evening after hours and hours of laughs etc.,
he asked me to wear/hold on to his ring- until the next time we would meet again
we met again- haahaha under very akward circumstances!!
i was having drinks w a dude who i thought would make a great guy friend
it turned out that he was interested in dating me
he tells me this after sharps arrives with his friends
…sharps was a lil nervous arriving,
he arrived and was soooo macho
omw- him and the other dude ended up having an argument about cars-
it was so silly!
sharps ended up looking like an ass…
eish, he was loosing points
but i still allowed him to drop me off at home
then he drove off wthout checking i was in the house ok
(got home and my dad had locked the door- not on purpose-eish)
anyways blabla blah
he apologised and made up for the bad behavior the following evening when we went for a date
i was soooooooo nervous!!!!!
all went well**
and we spent new years together with my niece and my cousins and one of his friends and later w his sister
oh what fun we had!! then checked into a motel…
i am a little besotted w him…
he is such a dude-it is interesting
his kisses make my knees wobble
anyways

i will write the new years’ plans
it will be a wonderful year!

” is the door is stuffy?”

as i was laying in the bed-
i noticed a head of an animal by the window…a reptile of sorts…
it took me a couple of seconds to figure out that it was on the wrong side…my side of the window

brrr, just found out that my cousin is in hospital
she has had a miscarriage
brrr

i am not sure what is sad about the whole story-
the precise thing that made me teary…
the idea of my fragile lovely cousin in pain
the idea of losing a baby
the resulting confusion that i can only imagine…
the nearness of death…
in my head, there is always tomorrow

the nearness of death… her death
which is close to my death too…
if/when she does die- my parts will wither too
they will dissipate…
like living with someone with alzheimers really… you slowly wither away…
i will go visit her, and take her flowers. i have stopped crying now.
but when i visualise her, i well up with tears

i printed some images of some of my works on A5 sheets and compiled it in a book of sorts.
binded by a ring..
i have so many pics of david that it is nuts…
all that i saw has dissipated
my heart does not well up with emotion when looking at pics of him
or when i think of him….
i do not even see the beauty i had seen before
funny that…
(the pics of him are in some digital drawings)
it all seems a bit ridiculous!
love is so ridiculous… we keep chasing it…
wanting to bask in it! continuously!
went to suncity with kweek yesterday
it was so much fun!!!
as much as i was warry about the idea of a fake beach….
(in support of ‘the natural thing’)
i am happy i went, and enjoyed!!
the rides were awesome….
hahaha designed super well
the big slide was the worst—
if there was nothing else to enjoy- maybe i would have convinced myself
but yikes, that was a little frightening
my favourite ride was the mamba…
it was poetry in motion
like falling inlove and making love
the fright..the light, the thrill, the giddiness!
one emerges elated at the end of the tunnel!!
filled with giggles-wanting to do it all again!
oh such fun in the sun!!

met a guy named xolani in durbs,
he was so lovely!
the question is whether to pursue it further or
enjoy the moments we had and bask in that.
we do not know each other well
but he made my heart want to sing
he really just kissed my heart
blew air through it, he was just lovely

pursuing it further….he suggested i return to durbas to visit him
on his acc, but finding suitable dates has been not so easy from his side
so much so that i have doubts about going…
i am somewhat scared- i dunno of what…
last night i put it in my mind to kiss someone else…
i kissed 2 people, the one was really good
the other-was good technically speaking…
(xo) really hugged my heart*
love is an intention
(and a verb)